Originally, this was an article I posted in 2013.  However, the message is still ever before us as the earth and its inhabitants groan for redemption!

Following is my response to a brother’s response, to me, about being prepared should there be a false flag or national grid outage this November or in the near future.  I had mentioned that it was unusual and weird that the electric company, where our Montana home is located, had a recorded phone call sent out to all the residents stating that the electricity would be off, for maintenance, from 11 pm till 4 am just prior to the nationally announced GridEx II drill.

This outage was cancelled due to a myriad of complaints which I found out late yesterday when I called to inquire. After all, it is not very bright to have an exercise drill from 11pm till 4am which is the coldest part of the day (night) in Northwest Montana.  If you do not have wood heat, you would be pretty cold even if you were sleeping.  In response to my email about being prepared for an outage, false flag, solar flare and/or a bank holiday and my interesting phone call from the power company concerning the exercise and how it was near the time of the GridEx II drill, a brother stated:

“I know, isn’t it just too insane all that is going on today?  You would think the wheels would have fallen off years ago; but, the ramping up just keeps building like a pressure cooker about to explode. We think that surely it can’t take any more, yet, more is being heaped on to our amazement.  The pressure is on the people; they are the pressure cookers.  Not until the yoke is firmly planted will YHWH’s people be aware and, in their heart, make a cry to Abba that He will answer.  He is very very, very tired of the pretenders of heart that fill this world.”

Yes, brother, it is all too insane. Your response reminds me of when, back in 2000, Abba was speaking to me about my children being the remnant. I was going through the hardest trial of my life, facing losing my 2 older daughters (by a previous marriage) to an evil man (ex) who didn’t really want them. He made it his mission to torment us for seven years and, finally, served me with papers which were terrorizing with fifteen pages of false accusations including child abuse. This ended in a court trial wherein he admitted it was not true but there were was no restitution for all our losses.

Our losses were for the sake and privilege of retaining the rights to keep the girls and raise them for YHWH.  It took EVERYTHING we had and a resolve to NOT GIVE UP regardless of the cost. In the end, though my ex had many more resources and ammunition to destroy us, it was that RESOLVE of TOTALLY TRUSTING and GIVING it ALL to YHWH that WON out.  It was the resolve, “though He slay me, I will trust Him,” and His great mercy that we won the victory.

The greatest fear and greatest test of my faith was what would happen to my faith if I walked out of the court without my children? Would YeHuSHuaH be enough?  Would I turn my back on the great Elohim?  Would I be able to trust Him if He allowed such an evil man to get guardianship of the daughters He gave to me to raise for Him?

Up until the final court date, I could have made a treaty with the enemy; however, I knew it was ONLY until the NEXT time he wanted to terrorize us as he had done the previous 7 years wherein I had always given in to his tyranny.

I was constantly upheld by YHWH’s WORD/DeBaR (frequencies of LIGHT, LIFE and ORDER) by Isaiah 41:8 – 13 in a literal, spiritual and physical sense.

     “But you, Yisra’ĕl, are My servant, Yaʽaqoḇ, whom I have chosen, the descendants of Abraham, My friend, whom I have taken from the ends of the earth, and called from its farthest parts, and said to You, ‘You are My servant, I have chosen you and have not rejected you.

     ‘Do NOT FEAR, for I AM WITH YOU. Do not look around, for I am your Elohim.  I shall strengthen you, I shall also help you, I shall also uphold you with the right hand of My righteousness.’

     “See, all those who raged against you are ashamed and blush, they are as non-existent. And the men who strive with you perish.

     “You seek them but do not find them, those who struggle with you. Those who fight you are as non-existent, as naught.

     “For I, YHWH יהוה your Elohim, am holding your right hand, saying to you‘Do not fear, I shall help you.’

I would even have a shaking come over my right hand when I had to face the raging lions during depositions, waiting in the halls and offices for attorneys and judges, and when I fell to my knees with fear in the hidden moments while alone. 

Abba was telling me to STOP turning the other cheek just for peace.  Rather, I was to STAND in the face of the roaring lion.  This is when I had to learn FEAR was a SIN except to fear YeHuWaH Elohim.

Was I scared beyond all comprehension?  YES!  But I feared YHWH Elohim Tzaba’ot even MORE and CHOSE to walk in FAITH TRUSTING HIM.

It is NOT a suggestion to NOT FEAR the enemy and the spirit behind flesh and blood. I learned to be thankful for the unclean vessels in my life that caused heartache, pain, terror and material losses.  If I believed His Word, like Job, I knew that NOTHING came to me EXCEPT via the throne of Elohim and with His permission!  Unclean vessels cause us to run to ABBA wherein He holds our hands and walks us through the fire whilst our dross is removed.  The outcome is that we learn to KNOW — Yadah our Beloved like we could never have deemed possible had it not been for the unclean vessels that drove us into His everlasting arms of love.

During this time, the Ruach led me to be immersed in the books of Lamentations, Isaiah Psalms and Jeremiah.  It would be just a matter of about 18 months before I understood what it really meant to be part of the remnant of Israel.

During this fiery trial, literally and physically, I conceived a son, Zachariah.  I carried him inside this Living Stone vessel during the most sorrowful days of my life.  My husband and I had given up trying to having children after 7 years.  But it was during this time when it looked the bleakest that YHWH spoke to me, “You are with child, you have a son.  It is spoken.” 

Indeed, weeks later I discovered that I was with child.  Thus, we had him named before he was born – Zachariah which means YHWH remembers.  We are commanded over 360 times to REMEMBER.  Remember what YHWH says, what He did, and what He says He will do.  It is a commandment to ZaCHaR – REMEMBER! 

My husband and I had given up and had forgotten about having children.  We assumed it was Abba’s will to not have children of our flesh.  Rather, He had us run a children’s home and also adopted a baby boy born to an incarcerated mother.  We thought He was done filling our quiver.

Then the time came that He remembered!   YHWH remembered our prayers and gave us the desires of our heart.  Not only did He remember and gave us Zachariah at age 41, He gave us an overflowing blessing and at age 43 (19 months later) I gave birth to Jedidiah meaning Beloved of YHWH.

Carrying Jedidiah was an extremely easy pregnancy and, even at eight months I felt so good and so healthy that I was concerned.  That certainly was not the case when I had Zachariah.  I was so ill and full of calcium stones on my bones I couldn’t hold him until I discovered juicing and a vegetarian diet.  That diet healed me and gave me the strength that I would need to overcome an accident which caused me to go into early labor and have Jedidiah 5 weeks early.  That is another miraculous story in and of itself.

As I was giving birth to Zachariah, everything was READY!  Contractions began at 9 am and by high noon, the water had broken, the cervix was ready, and dilation was complete – it should have been a short labor.  But Zachariah had to turn (teshuva) and do an about face which he did do at about 5pm.  Still, labor was hindered as each contraction caused Zachariah to push backwards towards my tailbone instead of lining up and pushing through the narrow birth canal. 

The midwife had to manually put her hands inside of me to hold my uterus in place to correctly line up with the birthing canal during a contraction (birth pang).  It was torture.  I was weak, white and looked like I was dying.  If I had been in a hospital, his birth would have been a cesarean birth.  He would have been cut out and would not have had the added benefit of his lungs being cleared by squeezing through the birth canal and, thus, would not have been able to breathe as freely as a naturally birthed baby.

At the crisis moment, the midwife asked me and my husband to trust her and asked if we wanted to go to the hospital.  We chose to have ONLY Elohim be in charge of this birth. So, we continued to have faith and prayed for mercy as we did not want to turn to Egypt for help.  It was extremely difficult for my husband to not be fearful that he might lose his wife and child. Fortunately, Abba had prepared me, many years before, to  seek only Him for healing and deliverance as Pharaoh’s system had only caused me near death and more illness.  I knew that I was safer with ONLY YHWH in the middle of a desert than in a hospital filled with doctors. After all, He had taught me how to rely on Him and how to be healed in natural ways that He provided.

Upon the final moments of Zachariah’s birth, his crowning BURNED like fire at which I screamed as I had never had that happen before with any of my other children’s birth.  I had never screamed or raised my voice with my former births or that of Jedidiah’s which came only 19 months later.  Then, finally at 7pm, Zachariah was born at 7 lbs. even.  It was as if YHWH remembered (ZaCHaR) on the 7th day to deliver and bring forth the child “He had spoken would be.”  My midwife, who had been a midwife for over 20 years at the time, told me that I was a pain warrior and that Zachariah’s birth was one of the most difficult births she had attended.

Within 24 hours of Zachariah’s birth, Abba spoke to me, “Your children are the remnant and remember, though the birth was imminent and READY from all aspects, though it was like you were at the rodeo in the starting gate on a wild bull or horse READY to be let out of the stall at the SOUND of the HORN (shofar), that gate does NOT open nor does the BIRTH happen UNTIL I SPEAK IT FORTH!”

Abba also put these verses upon my heart:

Isaiah 66:7  Before she travailed, she brought forth; before her pain came, she was delivered of a man child.

Isaiah 66:8  Who hath heard such a thing? who hath seen such things?  Shall the earth be made to bring forth in one day? or shall a nation be born at once? for as soon as Zion travailed, she brought forth her children.

Isaiah 66:9  Shall I bring to the birth, and not cause to bring forth?  saith Yahweh: shall I cause to bring forth, and shut the womb?  saith thy Elohim.

Isaiah 66:10  Rejoice ye with Jerusalem, and be glad with her, all ye that love her: rejoice for joy with her, all ye that mourn for her.


Thelma with Baby Little Lou – Spring 2011

When Zachariah was about 3 days old, I was having trouble nursing him. He was crying because he was hungry and he wouldn’t latch on correctly which caused my breasts to become painfully engorged.  As I was extremely tired, crying and thinking that I was starving my baby and how I longed to hold him and feed him and nourish him, the Ruach haKodesh spoke to me,

“Daily, I, too, long to hold my children close to my breast, look into their eyes and feed them with my true milk that will nourish and strengthen them.  This is my WORD. But they would rather have artificial milk, from a propped up bottle, from which they don’t have to work at sucking from in order to develop their muscles.  They are gluttons for artificial milk – an artificial Word gained easily.  This is why they choke and the milk runs down the sides of their heads into their ears wherein they get ear infections and they can’t hear me.  They do not want to gaze back into my eyes as I hold them in my arms and gaze back upon them in wonder of how beautiful and perfectly I made them.  They do their own thing in their own way.  They don’t want to latch onto me correctly and work at getting pure milk that will nourish and heal them and make them strong.”

This broke my heart and I realized that I was just as guilty when I did not daily suck at His breast, the El Shaddai, the many breasted One, Who had more than enough to provide all our needs!  About a year later, Abba called us to come completely out of the “church” and spoke very clearly that she was the great whore.  I was shocked; but, I knew His voice and we obeyed.  This began our journey to crossing over and we learned that we were to obey the commandments and the Torah, not just because it was profitable for us, but because we were obligated to do so as we were Israel – the Bride who was in covenant with her Bridegroom YeHuSHuWaH.

As a homeschool mother and Providential HisStory writer, this changed my whole focus from writing about cause and effect for Christianity to the HisStory of Israel.  Israel was where we came from and Israel was where we were going!!  Our children needed to know this! I no longer focused on teaching Christian roots and restoring America as a Christian NATION.  It was time to be citizens of His Kingdom which included the LAND of Israel and His people, throughout the entire world, who were in covenant with Him!

Thus, I have often remembered the lessons that Elohim taught us through the birth of Zachariah.  Those lessons seem much more important today as we enter into the tribulations of the birth of Israel and the 2nd GREATER EXODUS – a rebirth of a NATION!

Although everything around us looks READY and it seems it could happen physically at any moment and though the enemy rages in our face, NOTHING will happen until YHWH says RELEASE!

In the 7th day, He will deliver and return the exiles of Israel and a nation will be reborn!

Although the bride may be weak, pale and sickly enduring much tribulation and want to choose the back way out and NOT go through the NARROW path.  It will cost her everything.  But she will be resolved to TRUST her Beloved Bridegroom.  She will TURN and latch on correctly to His bosom working to receive His Word and she will be nourished, healed and DELIVERED!  She will be delivered because He REMEMBERS His covenant with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob!

Therefore, do NOT FEAR nor be DISMAYED oh, Israel!  Your REDEEMER Elohim will uphold you with His right hand of His righteousness and strengthen you!

Just like my attending midwife did, Elohim will put His hand upon you and guide you out!

For His Kingdom,

Nitza